dreamsinthyme:

lonelyinsomniac:

How do you learn to accept the knowledge you’re never enough (and never have been) to invoke in someone the urge to fight for you? I don’t mean a knock-down, drag-out fight; I’m not talking about punches or any kind of physical action; I merely mean the desire to figure out how to “make it work.”

Love can be a treacherous emotion, causing us to want something which is often unattainable. Either the other person doesn’t feel the same way, or one of the parties is already in a relationship, or some other obstacle is in the way, or even some combination of factors. Some people will move mountains to make their relationship work – they’ll change themselves, their lives, or even relocate. Some, for a myriad of reasons, can’t or won’t do anything. I don’t fault either group; we have to be true to ourselves.

I don’t want to admit this here because I don’t want it used against me in some way, but I’m the kind of person who will go out of her way if she knows there is someone at the other end waiting for me. Yes, I’m the one who would move mountains if it was possible. I’d consider selling my house and moving across the country. Or out of the country. Drastic measures, yes, but why not? Life is meant to be lived, something I’ve only recently come to really know.

Many people have touched my life in many different ways – some small, some large, but all appreciated. Some have found their ways into my heart. The heart – love – one thing I am learning and need to figure out how to fully accomplish is that we need to be our own best lovers. For when that happens, it matters not if we are alone. Loving ourselves fully ensures we will never be lonely.